As I left California, with the rain and cold weather still
in the forecast, and the government shutdown still torturing me, I decided to
head to Death Valley National Park. It was supposed to rain on and off
with temps in the 50's. Due to private donors, most of the park was open and the
campgrounds were free since the park was not allowed to charge fees. As I
entered the park, I was stunned by the prehistoric looking mountains, as if an
ancient lounge of giant sea lizards had climbed up out of the Pacific Ocean and
decided to take a nap and never woke up. The colors of the layered sediment
reminded me of layered sand art that so many of us made as children, with
oranges, grays, purplish-blues, varying hues of browns. The aged sediment
pressed down and down until it looked like a painted mountain, sloping down
into the desert floor. The sand dunes also appeared magical. As I passed by, the
overcast lighting from the sky made the caramel colored dunes appear as silk
sheets with the illusion of waves gently cascading and falling
The drive down into the park was also a highlight. Highways
190 starts at the top of the mountain at 5,000 feet and then goes down and down and down, with
gentle ups, like a kiddie roller coaster, in one straight shot to the bottom of
the desert floor at 200 feet below sea level. There was not another car on the
road for the entire drive down. It’s was a total thrill for me to drive fast and I just
let my car coast, at 85 mph, riding the middle of the road, up and down, up and
down, with butterflies in my stomach and having a blast.
Unfortunately, I was unable to enjoy the park. It started raining the evening I got there
and then the next day was 45 degrees with a mix a rain, strong wind and a few
snow flurries. I was in no mood to
explore in that weather. And of course, the weather forecast showed no
indication of sunny skies over the next week so I decided to move along and
head to the Grand Canyon. There was hope of sunny skies there.
When I arrived at the Grand Canyon, which was open despite
the government shut down, it was 45 degrees, sunny, no wind or rain and about 8
inches of snow on the ground. It was very busy and seemed as if every ethnicity
and language had gathered at this national site. There were Indian women in
Sari’s, teenagers in shorts and t-shirts, the granola hikers decked out in the
name brand essential hiking gear with their man buns. There were tourists that
looked like they had driven from Aspen, Colorado with their fancy, faux fur
lined boots and coats as well as some foreign tourists in flip flops and
jackets, shivering while trying to take the quintessential Grand Canyon photo. Many
of the hiking trails were closed off due to snow and the risk of safety issues.
Since one of the only trails open was the South Rim, a paved trail, I decided I’d
walk that for a while. The trail was active with all the tourists sightseeing.
Generally I get annoyed when there is too much of a crowd and I can’t enjoy the
scenery, but I enjoyed watching all these people experience snow. For instance, 3 middle aged Indian women, all
dressed in Sari’s, building a small snowman and throwing snowballs at each
other, and laughing like school girls. There was a Latino family having a
snowball fight. A mother-daughter duo that kept arguing about how cold it
actually was and how far they wanted to walk. There were two older women who
kept attempting a selfie but kept falling down on top of each other in the icy
snow (I stepped into helpJ
I know the difficulties of taking a selfie). I continued people-watching as I sauntered
along the path, breathing the crisp fresh air, and stopping now and then to
admire the grand scenery. There were moments of quiet, away from the crowds, sitting
on a ledge here and there and just taking in how massive and still this place
was.
The next day predicted rain and possibly snow. I decided I’d wake up early the next morning
to head out before the weather became too bad.
As I left the park around 8 am, the blizzard started. The 3rd snowstorm of my trip. I
drove for about an hour in the snow before I needed to stop and get gas. The
other two national parks in Arizona were still closed (Petrified Forest and Saguaro)
and some fellow travelers recommended I head to Tuscan where the temperature
was sunny and 60 degrees. That sounded heavenly!! So I headed out from the snow
storm, which then later became a sand storm with the high winds persisting as I
drove through the desert. The wind was so strong that I was holding onto the
steering wheel with white-knuckles trying to keep my car in the lane. I
eventually reached Tucson and decided to stay a couple nights at Catalina State
Park.
The park was breathtaking. The campground was green with varieties
of cacti ranging from Saguaro, prickly pear, fishhook barrel, staghorn
cholla, teddy bear cholla and so many more. Several plants were flowering and
those bits of color popped against the green and brown background. The
mountains behind the campground were tall, jagged and gray, but felt protective
of the desert it covered. Unfortunately, I contracted a nasty head and chest
cold and my energy was pretty low to enjoy it all. My last day there I did
manage a 4 mile easy hike/walk. The stillness was calming. I was the only one
on the path, and if it wasn’t for the prickly cacti everywhere, I would have
enjoyed just laying down and sunbathing in the stillness of that landscape.
I have vivid memories and feelings of stillness and “being”
when in the desert. Once was in Wadi Rum, a large desert in the country of
Jordan (mentioned in a previous blog post) of how I was just still while riding
through the desert. Another time of sitting atop the arid Arabian Mountains.
And another memory of driving down a random dirt road in southeastern Utah and
coming to the edge of a canyon. I remember sitting there while I watched the
sun go down, without another soul around. I didn’t experience any inspirational
thoughts or insights, but that moment felt profound and still and immense and
beautiful and sacred, but for no particular reason other than I was witnessing
a breath taking moment on this lovely Earth.
I’ve noticed that my energy feels different in different
landscapes. When I’m by the ocean, my
body feels a restless energy and it’s difficult for me to relax, oddly enough,
since the beach is a place most people think of when imaging a relaxing time. When
I’m in the mountains or walking among trees, I feel a positive, calming,
grounding but also driving energy. When I’m
in the desert, I feel still. That’s all. I don’t feel rushed, or think about
the past, or the future or even the now.
I don’t feel at battle with my ego, or wounds, or self-esteem, or hunger or
sleep. My soul is just “being” in the stillness. Stillness is a verb, an action
word. In our everyday lives, it actually takes effort to be still, to put down
our phones, our “to-do” lists, to turn off the tablet or TV, to let our minds
rest. I am a restless soul with a restless mind. It takes a tremendous amount
of effort or external distractions to shut off my mind. Yet, when I’m in the desert, there is no
effort to be still, it just happens. There is a calmness, a profound peace, an almost
spiritual experience when I walk in the quietness. It’s as if Mother Earth is telling me to slow
down, that it takes time and patience to grow and carve a beautiful existence,
so just be still and let it be.
Walking through this Arizona desert landscape didn’t offer
any profound revelations, but I was reminded of the stillness. It is easy to
always rush onto the next thing. Why is that?
If stillness is so sweet and good for the soul, why do we prioritize “doing”
over stillness. Obviously, we all have obligations to jobs, family and
maintaining our material needs, but perhaps moments of stillness can help us
reconnect with our soul, our divine, in order to help us learn and appreciate
the beauty among all the chaos.
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